Monday, November 25, 2013

Still life

The air
The leaf
The brain

The bird song too is brazen..

While d numbness spreads..
Beyond d thots.. into heads..

While I try to speak..
All words too meek...

d heart beat..
stops ..
takes a seat..

Nothing moves...
Not d horses nor their hooves..

The clock ticks..
The same second.
Repeats

It's a paused moment..

look around..
The sky..d ground..

Nothing changes..
Still life arranges..

U blink
It repeats
The air
The leaf
The brain

Keeps freezing.

Hdk

Thursday, November 21, 2013

Let me

Let me take away this one last day...
Let me try and recreate d spring day...

Let there b no regrets my love..
Let me try n bring back my lost love...

Let me not cry this one day...
Let me sing for u and make dis a good day..

Let me see u sparkle ..
in d sun..
let me hold ur hand
while v r on d run...

Let me rip apart all dat i hate..
Let me just.rightfully make my claim..

Let me show d world i can b happy too...
Let me show u..u can b happy too..

Let me unwind from all d messy weeds..
Let me fly and show d world my deeds..

Let me love u ..b u and show u all d right..let me clean all d dust from d night...

Let me n u try and live one day..like people in love who cry for one another each day...

Let me break apart all d silly boundaries..

let me show u .. 
How much
i truly care.. 
Without u 
i cant b truly there...

Let show u how wat u say matters too..

Let me show u we can clean d blur...

Let me teach u how to hope..

Let me tell u how this will never stop...of how i cry each time u shut d shop..

HDK


Tuesday, November 19, 2013

Contrast

It is d winters cold...
On a cloudy night...
...a man alone ..
... Theres no one in sight..
He walks around..
In d moon light

Theres a shadow behind..
Just walkin tight..
Crawling around...
Converging inside...
It wants to b ...
Bac in plain sight

The man so sure...
Walked unbind..
Wind blowing...leaves rustling..
The savage weather ..so unkind...
The greens r white.. 
It would b a snowy night...

He walked on 
unruffled.. 
unharmed..

The wind blew hard ...
It froze his feet...
He smiled and moved on..
Coz wat bothered him was d mornin heat..

The sun hit him...
And d beam burned..
For night was his realm ...
Where he beat made his claim..


Unruly..
Unkind..
Was wat he could deal wid..

Hdk

Unedited
Unfinished

Sunday, October 27, 2013

Solar Flare


Altough he is the sun...the sun..
the mighty son...
the powerful one..

He burns he burns
he never yearns...
the light bearer of mass taverns

 The people weak look up to him....
he lightens the sky - the sun beam..
 The darker nights ...
The evil dreams...
He kills them all ..from light year realms...

But they don't kno..this protector beam...
Has wounds too deep .. Has wounds too deep...
 He bleeds all day ..in nights he screams..
Volcanoes burn ..in his sordid realms..

He blasts his wall ...
The halls he tears..
 But the pains keeps rearing its ugly head...

 He burns all down and wrecks his lair..
.but down its just a solar flare..a solar flare.

HDK

Saturday, October 19, 2013

it begins where it ends

You want role-models in life.. someone you want to look up to.. I never found someone in real life..so i looked for them in fiction.. and i found plenty. Its amazing how you create someone you want to look up to by just writing about it .. by creating a world around it and by fitting that world according to the role model..I tried doing that too..

I started writing about it and immersed myself in that process .. I wrapped myself with that thought and let it take control of me.. every action I did was to conform to that idea and every-way i reacted was to its norms..  I designed my world to respond to it and let him take control... to a point where I was him and he was me. Reality was a dream and the dream was the reality.. Wen you let an idea take control of u ..everything else is a blur..Imperfection is eliminated and so is every thing that does not fit..and wen you see your life from the role-models perspective you are ashamed of ursef.. you are ashamed to look at wat you have become from what your potential was.. you tell him that u wer forced to do it coz of circumstances .. of how weak u became by it all that one day you snapped and recoiled...you cry and beg for forgiveness. u want to let it all go .. but then how can u forgive ur own self.. how can u kno wat u did was not meant to be done whilst doing it..who would decide wat is right and wat is wrong .. wen u are your own role model .. whom do you then look up to..then isn`t wat is happening supposed to happen !!


    This is where the dream ends...sometimes u want the dream to continue .. u try to bring it bac ..but it never does...but then again ,,was it really a dream or this is a dream right now ...

HDK

PS : Thats why yu write.. so that the role model is not lost..tat once in a squeaky cupboard you find an old diary and u can look and let  him rise again.. although he is now obscure and gone from the imagination.. u read about him and let him take control again..the fictional role model :)

Gandhinagar Cyber Cafe

 I m sitting in a dingy cyber cafe ... where the air smells of smoke ..(make me unconformatbl bcoz of my asthma) .. the owner of the cafe decides who sits where and i`m ordered to sit in the center of the cafe..i have to keep the keyboard parallel to the monitor .. i dont like that and the distance between the chair and the keyboard is annoying.. I dont like that either.. there is a freak next to me who`s reading everything I write..I want to punch his face..anyways .. now that annoying cyber cafe owner is playing pathetic music... I want to punch him too..

The chair has no cushions.. I cant rest my hands..I dont like the mouse coz the wheel in between is non responsive... the keyboard is too rough..I cant believe I cycled 4 kms for this..

I dont have internet at my place and nor do I have a laptop...

Just a few of the many of things i hate  

Sunday, September 22, 2013

...Grief

He was inconsolable tat night..
he wept like never before..

A chunk of him was dead tat night..
a sight never seen before..

travelling away from the city he was born..

 this city had given him everything..defined who he was..
tonite it took away everything..and it didn`t blink once...

he cried for his love..
he moaned all alone..

A loner for life was wat lay before..
the endless road..
the sunless sky..

a surge of despair and pain..
of shrieks and and a life in vain..

the world flashed by ..

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Khayyam...Book of Love

The bird of life is singing on the bough
His two eternal notes of "I and Thou"—
O! hearken well, for soon the song sings through,
And, would we hear it, we must hear it now.

The bird of life is singing in the sun,
Short is his song, nor only just begun,—
A call, a trill, a rapture, then—so soon!—
A silence, and the song is done—is done.

Yea! What is man that deems himself divine?
Man is a flagon, and his soul the wine;
Man is a reed, his soul the sound therein;
Man is a lantern, and his soul the shine.

Would you be happy! hearken, then, the way:
Heed not To-morrow, heed not Yesterday;
The magic words of life are Here and Now—
O fools, that after some to-morrow stray!

Were I a Sultan, say what greater bliss
Were mine to summon to my side than this,—
Dear gleaming face, far brighter than the moon!
O Love! and this immortalizing kiss.

To all of us the thought of heaven is dear—
Why not be sure of it and make it here?
No doubt there is a heaven yonder too,
But 'tis so far away—and you are near.

Men talk of heaven,—there is no heaven but here;
Men talk of hell,—there is no hell but here;
Men of hereafters talk, and future lives,—
O love, there is no other life—but here.

Look not above, there is no answer there;
Pray not, for no one listens to your prayer;
Near is as near to God as any Far,
And Here is just the same deceit as There.

But here are wine and beautiful young girls,
Be wise and hide your sorrows in their curls,
Dive as you will in life's mysterious sea,
You shall not bring us any better pearls.

Of all my seeking this is all my gain:
No agony of any mortal brain
Shall wrest the secret of the life of man;
The Search has taught me that the Search is vain.

Allah, perchance, the secret word might spell;
If Allah be, He keeps His secret well;
What He hath hidden, who shall hope to find?
Shall God His secret to a maggot tell?

Yet sometimes on a sudden all seems clear—
Hush! hush! my soul, the Secret draweth near;
Make silence ready for the speech divine—
If Heaven should speak, and there be none to hear!

The Koran! well, come put me to the test—
Lovely old book in hideous error drest—
Believe me, I can quote the Koran too,
The unbeliever knows his Koran best.

“Did God set grapes a-growing, do you think,
And at the same time make it sin to drink?
Give thanks to HIM who foreordained it thus—
Surely HE loves to hear the glasses clink!”

From God’s own hand this earthly vessel came,
He shaped it thus, be it for fame or shame;
If it be fair—to God be all the praise,
If it be foul—to God alone the blame

So since with all my passion and my skill,
The world's mysterious meaning mocks me still,
Shall I not piously believe that I
Am kept in darkness by the heavenly will?

And do you think that unto such as you,
A maggot-minded, starved, fanatic crew,
God gave the Secret, and denied it me?—
Well, well, what matters it! believe that too.

Old Khayyám, say you, is a debauchee;
If only you were half so good as he!
He sins no sins but gentle drunkenness,
Great-hearted mirth, and kind adultery.

But yours the cold heart, and the murderous tongue,
The wintry soul that hates to hear a song,
The close-shut fist, the mean and measuring eye,
And all the little poisoned ways of wrong.

So I be written in the Book of Love,
I have no care about that book above;
Erase my name, or write it, as you please—
So I be written in the Book of Love.


Omar Khayyam

Saturday, June 22, 2013

Chaos

And then he breaks up..there's carnage... 
He knows hez meant for d fire...
for being burnt..for being in hell
 Punished for reasons he knows not
 A few days under d shade
and then it's bac
 He grinds there each day..
waiting for d sun to rise
 Toiling in d dark..
his tearful eyes on d horizon
 He's been.waiting for d sun since a 100 year'
s D hope gleams each day and den dims
 A life wid regrets..unfulfilled wishes and a broken heart
 He dreams of a green garden a gushin river a good house
 He wakes up to a ravaged terrain..an ugly drain and and a broken home
 He calls it a home because he sleeps there..
 D world is crumbling and he knows.that..and it will be soon wen he decides..
 A decision on would he perish wid d world or before it...

...hdk..

Knowledge is Eternity .