Undead

The cold steel was at my heart.. My heart..If that's what you call the beating red thing..the sword hilt in my hand as i creaked it right through the cage that held it.

I had stabbed myself

I was falling

Abandoning the world i didn't want to come back to..

I heard the wind lull me to sleep..as i fell, felt as she touched my lips to hear that last gasp...

 as gravity , too tired of sucking.  ...
refused to accept me..
gave up on me..
and
i was there..
stuck..
In between..

There was no death, where there was no life.

My joy of dying was short lived..there are some who die happy.. there are some who are happy at the thot of dying and there are those in between - not knowing - not knowing

I did hear Dante reciting his Canto 9 to me:

O you possessed of sturdy intellects,the teaching that is hidden here

sotto 'l velame de li versi strani.

beneath the veil of verses so obscure.

I was beneath and above the verses so obscure

Inferno-Purgatorio-Pardiso ..

haha Parody or so?

Hdk

The 100+ friends i made these 25 years

1 HarryPotter and the Philosophers Stone JK Rowling read
2 The memoirs of a geisha Arthur Golden read
3 Wings of Fire Abdul Kalam read
4 Mein Kampf Adolf Hitler partly
5 The immortals of Meluha Amish Tripathi read
6 Secret of the nagas Amish Tripathi read
7 Oath of the vayuputras Amish Tripathi read
8 Sherlock Holmes Arthur Conan Doyle read
9 The god of small things Arundhati Roy read
10 White tiger Arvind Adiga read
11 The fountainhead Ayn Rand read
12 Atlas Shrugged Ayn Rand read
13 Virtues of Selfishness Ayn Rand partly
14 Anthem Ayn Rand partly
15 We the Living Ayn Rand partly
16 The new intellectual Ayn Rand partly
17 The romantic manifesto Ayn Rand partly
18 Living with a wild god Barbara Ehrenreich read
19 5 pt someone Chetan Bhagat read
20 2 states Chetan Bhagat read
21 Revolution 2020 Chetan Bhagat read
22 A grief observed CS Lewis read
23 Tales of Narnia CS Lewis read
24 The Da Vinci Code Dan Brown read
25 Deception Point Dan Brown read
26 Lost Symbol Dan Brown read
27 Inferno Dan Brown read
28 Digital Fortress Dan Brown read
29 Angels and Demons Dan Brown read
30 The divine comedy Dante Alighieri read
31 the famous five Enid Blyton read
32 the secret seven Enid Blyton read
33 the hardy brothers Franklin Dixon read
34 Letters to Milena Franz Kafka read
35 Metamorphosis Franz Kafka read
36 The great wall of china Franz Kafka read
37 The day of the Jackal Frederick Forsyth read
38 Thus Spake Zarathustra Friedrich Nietzsche pending
39 Beyond Good and Evil Friedrich Nietzsche partly
40 On the genealogy of morals Friedrich Nietzsche pending
41 Twilight of the idols Friedrich Nietzsche pending
42 Crime and Punishment Fyodor Dostoyevsky reading
43 The Brothers Karamazov Fyodor Dostoyevsky reading
44 The Idiot Fyodor Dostoyevsky reading
45 Notes from the underground Fyodor Dostoyevsky reading
46 One hundred years of solitude Gabriel Marquez reading
47 Poems by Lord Byron George Byron reference
48 The time machine H G Wells read
49 The polyester prince Hamish Macdonald read
50 To kill a mockingbird Harper Lee read
51 HarryPotter and the Chamber of Secrets JK Rowling read
52 HarryPotter and the prisoner of Azkaban JK Rowling read
53 Harry Potter and the goblet of fire JK Rowling read
54 HarryPotter and the order of the phoenix JK Rowling read
55 HarryPotter and the half blood prince JK Rowling read
56 HarryPotter and the deathly hallows JK Rowling read
57 The Brethren John Grisham read
58 The painted house John Grisham read
59 the firm John Grisham read
60 Ford country stories John Grisham read
61 The Broker John Grisham read
62 The Associate John Grisham read
63 Poems by Keats John Keats reference
64 Gullivers Travels Jonathan Swift read
65 Sophie`s World Jostien Gaarder reading
66 Lord of the rings JRR read
67 The prophet Kahlil Gibran read
68 Madman Kahlil Gibran read
69 Spirits Rebellious Kahlil Gibran read
70 The kite runner Kaled Hosseni read
71 A thousand splendid suns Kaled Hosseni read
72 Capital Karl Marx partly
73 Eye of the needle Ken Follett read
74 The company of woman Khushwant Singh read
75 The inheritance of loss Kiran Desai read
76 The Tibetian Book of the dead Lama Kazi Dawa-Samdu read
77 The sorrows of satan Marie Corelli reading
78 The Godfather Mario Puzo read
79 Jurassic Park Michael Crichton read
80 Timeline Michael Crichton read
81 The Lost World Michael Crichton read
82 Congo Michael Crichton read
83 Prey Michael Crichton read
84 Shock Doctrine Naomi Klien read
85 No Logo Naomi Klien reading
86 The ascent of money Niall Ferguson partly
87 In the line of fire Parvez Musharaff read
88 Malgudi Days RK Narayan read
89 Rich dad Poor Dad Robert Kiyosaki read
90 Midnights Children Salman Rushdie pending
91 Satanic Verses Salman Rushdie pending
92 Dilbert Scott Adams read
93 The interpretation of dreams Sigmund Freud read
94 Who moved by cheese Spencer Johnson read
95 A brief history of time Stephen Hawking read
96 Lajja Taslima Nasreen read
97 Man`s search for meaning Viktor Frankl read
98 To the lighhouse Virginia Woolf reading
99 Shakespeare - all stories William Shakespeare read
100 Life of Pi Yann Martel read
101 Man And Spirit:The Speculative Philosopher Saxe Commins,Robert Linscott
102 The Story of Philosophy William Durant

103 Les Miserables Victor Hugo