Y

I slept so that i cud dream
but no dream no sleep

y
i asked ,, y i answerd

y dream y sleep

y is the answr of all quesntns

rite then y and y not ,, start answerin ,,, hhaha


nirewsna trats ... ton y dna y neht etir

ntnseuq lla fo rwsna eht si y

peels y maerd y

drewsna i y ... deksa i
y

peels on maerd on tub
maerd duc i taht os tpels I

Lalkaar

Hai Liye Hathiyaar Dushman Taak Mein Baitha Udhar
Aur Hum Taiyyaar Hain Seena Liye Apna Idhar
Khoon Se Khelenge Holi Gar Vatan Muskhil Mein Hai
Sarfaroshi Ki Tamanna Ab Hamaare Dil Mein Hai

Haath Jin Mein Ho Junoon Katt Te Nahi Talvaar Se
Sar Jo Uth Jaate Hain Voh Jhukte Nahi Lalkaar Se
Haath Jin Mein Ho Junoon Katt Te Nahi Talvaar Se
Sar Jo Uth Jaate Hain Voh Jhukte Nahi Lalkaar Se
Aur Bhadkega Jo Shola-sa Humaare Dil Mein Hai
Sarfaroshi Ki Tamanna Ab Hamaare Dil Mein Hai

Hum To Ghar Se Nikle Hi The Baandhkar Sar Pe Qafan
Chaahatein Liin Bhar Liye Lo Bhar Chale Hain Ye Qadam
Zindagi To Apni Mehmaan Maut Ki Mehfil Mein Hai
Sarfaroshi Ki Tamanna Ab Hamaare Dil Mein Hai

Dil Mein Tuufaanon Ki Toli Aur Nason Mein Inquilaab
Hosh Dushman Ke Udaa Denge Humein Roko Na Aa
Duur Reh Paaye Jo Humse Dam Kahaan Manzil Mein Hai
Sarfaroshi Ki Tamanna Ab Hamaare Dil Mein Hai

The darkest hour before dawn !

the darkest hour is b4 the dawn i heard the prophet say
is it i asked after many such hours had passed
the mind was reeling with all patience surpassed
the cut was deep , the wound unhealed
but the darkest hour would pass , so i believed

it was the rain ,the rain so merciless so intense my eyes had never seen
the unfathomable destruction , the furious flow and the sun that was never so keen
my eyes cried , with all emotions hidden so deep
but the darkest hour would pass , so i believed

it was the pain , the pain so horrific so intense my heart had never felt
the head lay here and the foot there ,, the devastating blast and that made the rock melt
my heart moaned , with all the feelings that i had never dealt
but the darkest hour would pass , so i believed

it was vain , the effort vain , so many hopes dashed, to my mind that made no sense
the fool shouting there and the fool listening here ,, the brainless that run the world with stupidity immense
my efforts begged , with all the hopes deep n dense
but the darkest hour would pass, so i believed

it is still dark , there is still the mark of the men who tried and failed
men here and men there , having lost - their hope , their sight and their might
but with hope still in mind , with blood still boiling - The sailor sailed
The darkest hour is still passing and so will it - the prophet said !!!!!!!

i am mine - rusted fate - pearl jam

The selfish. They're all standing in line.
Fathing and hoping to buy themselves time.
Here I figure as each breath goes by.
I only own my mind.

The north is to south what the clock is to time.
There's east and there's west and there's everywhere lines.
I know I was born and I know that I'll die.
The in between is mine.
I am mine.

And the feeling it gets left behind.
All the innocence lost at one time.
Significant behind the eyes.
There's no need to hide.
We're safe tonight.

The ocean is full cause everyone's crying.
The full moon is looking for friends at high tide.
The sorrow grows bigger when the sorrows denied.
I only know my mind.
I am mine.

And the meaning it gets left behind.
All the innocents lost at one time.
Significant behind the eyes.
There's no need to hide.
We're safe tonight. What.

And the feelings that get left behind.
All the innocence broken with lies.
Significance between the lines.
We may need to hide.

And the meaning that get left behind.
All the innocence lost at one time.
We're all different behind the eyes.
There's no need to hide.

Nice one ..

Perceived abilities gets one hired
But very soon, one gets tired
Of living up to great expectations
& handling the daily trials and frustrations

Delivering one's best gets one no fame no acclaim
Coz' it was only expected
And anything remotely 'average' is not accepted
they say - Surely compalcency is to blame!

Can't they see
what life's become for me?
overexpectations
sucking the life outta me?

Cynicism raises its ugly head everyday
Doesn't listen to reason or anything that I say
It wants me to break free
It wants me to run away

But I'm down with it
I know this too will pass
I'm the one who raised the bar
I'm the one aiming to be a star
No success without some sorrow
or without sweat at the brow
So I'm gonna press on for some more time
I know I'll soon find my rhyme
!!!!

- NOT BY ME !

Goota move ASAP

the nose keeps runnin'
the air kips pumpin
the heart kips beaten n beatin n beatin
the soul entrenched
the mind ever sinkin
the body conssumated in its own upbringing
it revolves round the centre it all circles the centre
with da mind no wher in between
the fite goes on ,, the loser moves on
the fite goes on and the loser moven on

it gets sucked in d centre
the whole n wide centre
the centre ,, that never ever xisisted , the self consumed centre

the breathin is heavy ,, the heart is scary
the mind runs for cover ,,, the body for the shelter
it all keeps on movin ,, the body keeps on movin

i huff n i puff ,, the lungs keep on roarin
the medics keep on blowin
the bright white light ,,
and i m jus losin sight
n i`m jus losin might
they say health is wealth
n no wealth is no health

n i`m jus losin sight
n i`m jus losin might ,,,,,,,

the mite mite n da site site ,, o yea da mite and the site ,, all the way thru the light ,, the bright white, white lite, lite ,, lite, lite , lite ,, lite

the losers keep on fightin
the winners jus give up. hehe

\m/

Socha naa thaaaa ...

socha na tha,,

socha na tha subah uthte hee mai bed se gir jaaonga
socha na tha pehli xam mai he fail ho jaaonga
socha na tha k muje yea bhi sochana padega,

sooooooooocha na thaaaaaaa
soooooooooocha na thaaaaaaaaaaaa,,,

socha na tha k pani puri mai hoga cockroach
socha na tha loveletter hoga dad k haath mai
socha na tha professor ki beti hogi moti , jiske bandhi thi maine choti

soooooooooooochaaaaa naa thaaaaaaaa
soooooochaa na thaaaaaaa
socha na tha k muje yea bhi padega sochna

socha na tha , ho jayenge paise khatam , aur woh bolegi haan aaneko date pe
socha na tha ho jayegi pant geeli rain mai ,,
sun k result k marks lagegi aise waat ,,, sochaa naa thaa
soooocha na tha soooooooocha na thaa ...

socha na tha leni padegi movie ticket , logon ki paanch
socha na tha bal ho jayenge khade , daant peele aur muh kala ,,
socha na tha bolna padega kabhi sach , kabhi jhooth aur kabhi sach wala jhooth ,,
socha na tha ......



never had i thot , that a lunatic in me was lose ,,
it needed a dose ,, jus to shut the hose ,, with the nose that wasn`t evn close ,, disclose disclose ,, hahahahahahaa




HDK

Sindbaad the sailor ........

Sinbaad The Sailor Jahaaj Me Jab Chala, Mere Yaar Sun Lo Sun Lo
Dhundh Raha Tha Ek Nayi Duniya Ka Pata, Mere Yaar Sun Lo Sun Lo
Woh Anjaani Raahon Me Tha O O
Woh Leharo Ki Baahon Me Tha O O
Sab Ne Kaha Tha In Samundaro Me Jaana Nahi, Mere Yaar Sun Lo Sun Lo
Khwaabo Ke Pichhe Jaake Kuchh Bhi Hai Paana Nahi, Mere Yaar Sun Lo Suno
Woh Apni Hi Dhun Me Raha O O
Woh Sunata Tha Dil Ka Kaha O O
(usake The Jo Sapne, Wohi Usake The Apne
Aisa Tha Sinbaad The Sailor, Sailor......) - (2)

Usaka Jahaj Khila Tufano Me, Mere Yaar Sun Lo Sun Lo
Phir Bhi Na Aayi Kami Usake Armaano Me, Mere Yaar Sun Lo Sun Lo
Woh Deewana Aisa Hi Tha O O
Woh Sapano Ka Hamrahi Tha O O
(usake The Jo Sapne, Wohi Usake The Apne
Aisa Tha Sinbaad The Sailor, Sailor......) - (2)

Woh Kuchh Paane Ki Chaah Me O O
Woh Badhata Raha Raah Me O O
Gehara Samundar Tha Unchi Unchi Lehren, Mere Yaar Sun Lo Sun Lo
Kashtiya Jin Dekhi Mushkil Se Thehare, Mere Yaar Sun Lo Sun Lo
Woh Saahil Tak Aa Hi Gaya O O
Woh Manjil Ko Paa Hi Gaya O O
(usake The Jo Sapne, Wohi Usake The Apne
Aisa Tha Sinbaad The Sailor, Sailor......) - (2)

Aage badho !!

" Aage badho " thats wat the girl said ,, as the bus i was waitin for jus arrived and i was dozin at the unearthly hour,,,, i thot of the day as i took a seat in the bus ,, which had arrived after a gruelling wait of an hour !!
I dun read the news paper because they all have ugly prints ...,, people write ,, people read , and i sit and ponder why do they do that ! to add i`m a member in the readers community !! Today 9/9/08 , i got up late ,, did my bit of joggin runnin behind the train on the platform with the rains makin my track ,(platform) all wet ,,, Nevermind !! ,, the sky seemed dark real dark n i thot it was gonna rain all day along ,,, There was thunder as soon as i got in the EMU , , the train moved on ,,, with the rain lashing ferociously all throughout the way ,, i was drenched with my jogging suit(jeans) wet and drenched and by shirt soggy !! the guys already in the train staring me as if i had jus popped out of UFO or sumfin ,,, Nevermind ! (again) ... the vehicle moved on ,, from on station to the another and finally my destination arrived i got down takin care that i jus don`t tumble over the platform while getting down ! ,,, I hopped out of the station and went straight to the bus stop where i would find a bus to reach my educational institute ,, so called mm \.,. the rains relentlessly fallin ..seemed like the nature was takin its grudge out on the humans ,,,,, so i moved on from one mini pond (pothole) or the other takin care none spilled on myself by some vehicle o human !! hopin to find a bus i waited at the bus stop ... Lookin at the traffic at the juction i thot it wud tak atleast some time for the bus to arrive !!!!! " Aage badho " was tat a dream mm,,,, lolzz

Ganpati Bappa Morya !!

DISASTERS IN 2008 ,, that seemed like something copy pasted ,, but herez sumthn rite frm my box calld the Brain ,, Ganpati Bappa Morya ,, well that seemz to b the in thing , jus a week ago the templez wer all emty wid jus a lousy old couple tryin to find solace out there but today ,, god damn ,, every damn inch in that temple is occupied ,, y ... "'Ganpati Bappa Morya ",, c`mon guys join the party , ,, or can i say the prayer lolzz ,, if u still buggd u have the Ganpati Bappa Offer wherein u buy one cocunut and u get one mor fuck**** cocnut free ,, and u hav da ganeshotsav innaam ,, wherein if u are 1111111th devotee u get a kick on ur ass ... hows that for an offer .. grow up folks ,, 20 mins radius frm my home, ,,, i see atleast 100 ppl takin Ganpati ,, hehe .. and more than atleast 15 big ones i mean that is pathetic have some pity on ur so called god ,.,, if u get him at your place ,, u call people ,, y i still dun understand .... mebbe jus to have a good coke and some snacks ,, yea this is the best season to get free snacks .. ... ok and to add to it the MUSIC wherz da damn party tonite no its GANpati Bappa Morya ,,, i am a theist who does not believe in god and trust me if these offers continue i would soon be changin my stand haha, ,,,,, and after all this ,, the Great ganpati is immersed (so called word) in the sea or any water body ,,, why ? ?? aree try and understand what is the fun if we keep the same idol for the next year people won`t come to see the Great Ganpatii ,,, and after all this ,, i`ll jus be forced to slap someone who calls India a poor nation ! Ganpati Bappa Morya ,, atleast for now ,,, and check out guys the Navrati Offer is coming up next stay the fucking tuned ,,, !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
phew !

Disasters in 2008

January 2008 Disasters
Jan. 1–4, Kenya: more than 300 people are killed and thousands of houses, farms, and businesses are burned nationwide in violent riots between Luo and Kikuyu tribes after incumbent president Mwai Kibaki, a Kikuyu, defeats opposition candidate Raila Odinga, a Luo, in the presidential election.
Jan. 7–8, Ark., Ill., Mo., Wis.: a series of tornadoes caused by record-breaking temperatures kill at least six people, including two children, destroy houses, and flood roads.
Jan. 28, eastern and southern China: severe snowstorms leave at least 24 people dead and affect 78 million people overall, including 827,000 emergency evacuees. About half of the 31 provinces are without power, which strands at least 600,000 train passengers, and at least 19 major airports close. The economic cost of the storm is projected to be $3.2 billion.
February 2008 Disasters
Feb. 3, Dem. Rep. of the Congo: at least 45 people are killed and about 450 more injured after two strong earthquakes, one at 6.0 magnitude and the other at 5.0, strike the Congo.
Feb. 5–6, Tenn., Ark., Ala., Ky., Mo.: at least 55 people are killed and hundreds more injured after violent tornadoes rip through the southern United States. According to emergency officials, the victims include 31 people in Tennessee, 13 in Arkansas, 7 in Kentucky, and 3 in Alabama.
Feb. 7, Georgia, U.S.: an explosion at an Imperial Sugar Refinery near Savannah, Georgia kills 14 people and injures many more.
Feb. 21, Venezuela: a Venezuelan passenger plane crashes into an Andean Mountain within the Sierra La Culata National Park killing all 46 people aboard.
March 2008 Disasters
March 14–15, Georgia: two people are killed and at least 30 people are injured when violent tornadoes strike Atlanta and northwestern counties of Georgia including Polk County and Floyd County. The storms cause damage to the CNN Center, the Georgia Dome, and the Convention Center in Atlanta, and leave thousands of homes without power statewide.
March 17–19, Ark., Ill., Ky., Mo., Ohio: 13 people die, hundreds of people are evacuated from their homes, and hundreds of roads are closed during major floods that stretch from Texas to Pennsylvania.
April 2008 Disasters
Ongoing since January, Brazil: More than 80 people have died and at least 75,399 infected in Rio de Janeiro since January during a dengue fever outbreak. In March, the Brazilian military opened three field hospitals to help control the epidemic. In April, after a month of heavy rains, trained members of the army and navy start a 30-day tour in the Rio State to idenitify mosquito breeding grounds and educate residents on dengue fever prevention.
April 29, Virginia: Three tornadoes strike Norfolk, Suffolk, and Colonial Heights, injuring over 200 people and destroying at least 140 homes.
May 2008 Disasters
May 1–2, Arkansas: seven people are killed and 13 more injured in Arkansas when storms hit 16 counties Thursday night and Friday morning.
May 3, Myanmar: Cyclone Nargis hits the Irrawaddy Delta and the city of Yangon, killing about 78,000 people. Most of the deaths and destruction were caused by a 12-foot high tidal wave that formed during the storm. Cyclone Nargis is the worst natural disaster since the tsunami in 2004.
May 11, Okla., Mo., Ga.: more than 20 people die and hundreds more are injured when tornadoes hit Missouri, Oklahoma, and Georgia. Racine, a town about 170 miles south of Kansas City, Missouri saw the most damage, leaving about 9,000 people without electricity for over three days.
May 12, China: over 67,000 people die and hundreds of thousands more are injured when a 7.9 magnitude earthquake strikes Sichuan, Gansu, and Yunnan Provinces in western China. Nearly 900 students were trapped when Juyuan Middle School in the Sichuan Province collapsed from the quake. On May 19, 158 rescue workers are killed in landslides caused by rain and floods. On May 27, 150,000 people are evacuated from the Sichuan Province in anticipation of major floods.
June 2008 Disasters
June 9–18, Ind., Iowa, Ill., Mo. and Wis.: severe flooding from storms cause already swollen rivers and lakes to flood, killing 10 people, breaking three dams, and causing thousands to evacuate their homes. In addition, at least 90 roads are closed. According to the National Weather Service, the Cedar River is 17 feet above flood stage, the worst flooding Cedar Rapids has ever seen.
June 11, Iowa: a tornado kills four Boy Scouts and injures 48 others, when it tears through the Little Sioux Scout Ranch in western Iowa. The tornado also touched down in Kansas, killing two people.
June 17, southern China: the worst flooding in 50 years kills over 60 people, destroys 5.4 million acres of crops, causes landslides, and leaves 13 people missing in nine southern Chinese provinces.
June 21, the Philippines: a ferry, the Princess of the Stars, is struck by Typhoon Fengshen, killing most of the 865 passengers and crew. There are 59 known survivors. Almost 500 other people die during the storm.
July 2008 Disasters
July 24, Japan: at least 90 people are injured and thousands of homes lose power when a 6.8 magnitude earthquake strikes 67 miles below the earth's surface in the region of Iwate.
July 27, southeastern Europe: five days of heavy rain cause major flooding in the Ukraine and Romania, killing 18 people and causing at least $300 million in damages.
August 2008 Disasters
Aug. 1, Pakistan: a large mass of ice breaks on K2, the world's second-highest mountain, causing an avalanche that kills 11 climbers and injures several others.
Aug. 4, Himachal Pradesh: almost 150 people die when rumors of a landslide cause pilgrims to stampede during a festival celebrating the Hindu mother goddess at Naina Devi temple in northern India.
Aug. 5, northern California: nine firefighters die when a helicopter crashes and burns in Shasta-Trinity National Forest. The cause of the crash is unknown.
Aug. 10, Toronto, Canada: explosions at the Sunrise Propane Industrial Gasses facility force thousands of people in Toronto to evacuate their homes. Some residents suffer injuries and one firefighter dies.
Aug. 20, Madrid, Spain: at least 153 people die when a 160-person passenger plane skidds off the runway and bursts into flames during take-off at Barajas airport in Madrid.
Aug. 23, southern U.S.: at least 12 people die and thousands of homes and businesses are flooded when the slow-moving tropical storm Fay made landfall four times in Florida and Georgia.
Aug. 25, Chamonix, France: eight climbers die after an avalanche near Mount Blanc bury them under 165 feet of ice.
Aug. 28, India: flooding from the Kosi river causes the deaths of 55 people and the displacement of over 2 million more from their homes in the northern state of Bihar.
Aug. 28, Haiti and Dominican Republic: at least 67 people die and several more are injured when Tropical Storm Gustav makes landfall in Haiti and the Dominican Republic.
September 2008 Disasters
Sept. 1, U.S. Gulf Coast: Hurricane Gustav forces the entire city of New Orleans to evacuate, leaves more than one million homes without power, and kills at least 26 people in Louisiana, Georgia, and Mississippi.
Sept. 5, Haiti: Tropical Storm Hanna strikes Haiti, killing at least 500 people and leaving many more injured or missing in the port city of Gonaives.
Sept. 7–8, Haiti, Cuba, Turks and Caicos islands: at least 61 people die in Haiti, 4 more are killed in Cuba, and 80% of homes are destroyed on Turks and Caicos islandswhen category 2 Hurricane Ike strikes the Caribbean.
Sept. 12, California: a metrolink commuter train collides with a freight train northwest of Los Angeles, killing 25 passengers.
Sept. 13–14, southern U.S.: Hurricane Ike continues its damage when it hits Texas and causes at least 50 deaths, thousands more to evacuate their homes, and millions to lose power in Houston alone. Ike hits the island city of Galveston Bay the hardest, knocking out water, power, and sewer lines. Despite requests to evacuate, at least 15,000 people remained in Galveston amid worsening sanitary conditions.
Sept. 14–16, midwestern U.S.: as Ike travels inland, the storm weakens to a tropical depression, but torrential rain causes severe flooding and power outages in parts of Louisiana, Kansas, Missouri, and Illinois. At least 17 people die and more than two million homes and businesses lose power.
Sept. 30, India: over 100 people die and hundreds more are seriously injured when a wall of the Chamunda Devi temple in Jodhpur, northern India, collapses during the Navratra religious festival and causes a stampede.
THe fall in the US markets .

October 2008 Disasters
Oct. 6, Kyrgyzstan: at least 70 people die, hundreds more are injured, and hundreds of homes are destroyed when a 6.6 magnitude earthquake strikes the Osh region, leveling the entire town of Nura.
Oct. 8, Nepal: a Yeti Airlines passenger plane, flying from Kathmandu to Lukla in eastern Nepal, bursts into flames on the runway while landing in heavy cloud, killing 18 of the 19 people on board—only the Nepalese pilot survived.
Oct. 29, Pakistan: a 6.4 magnitude earthquake hits southwestern Pakistan, killing at least 170 people and destroying over 15,000 homes.
Oct. 30, India: a series of explosions in the northeastern region of Assam kill at least 55 people and wound more than 200 more.

November 2008 Disasters
Nov. 7, Haiti: over 90 students die and over a hundred more are injured when a poorly constructed church-run school collapses on the outskirts of Port-au-Prince.
Nov. 9, the Sea of Japan: in the most deadly accident on a Russian submarine since 2000, 20 people die and 21 more are injured when two compartments of a new Russian nuclear submarine flood with Freon gas during tests in the Sea of Japan.
Nov. 15–18, California, U.S.: fueled by hurricane strength Santa Ana winds, three fires burn for several days consuming 40,000 acres of land and hundreds of homes. A state of emergency is called in five counties

Nov. 22–23, Brazil: at least 119 people die and over 80,000 homes are destroyed when heavy rains dump more water on the southern state of Santa Catarina than it normally gets in months, causing floods and mudslides throughout the region.

December 2008 Disasters
Dec. 11, New England, U.S.: at least 800,000 homes are left without electricity for several days after an ice storm hits New England. President Bush declared a state of emergency in parts of Massachusetts and New Hampshire, sending in FEMA to set up shelters and National Guard troops to help restore power lines.
Dec. 28, Canada: eleven people on snowmobiles are buried when two avalanches hit Harvey Pass, a popular backcountry snowmobile destination in British Columbia. Three snowmobilers survived, while eight others remained buried.

Bavra Mann

Bavra Mann Dekhne Chala Ek Sapna
Bavra Mann Dekhne Chala Ek Sapna



Bavre Se Mann, Ki Dekho Bavri Hain Baatein
Bavre Se Mann, Ki Dekho Bavri Hain Baatein
Bavri Se Dhadkaane Hain, Bavri Hain Saansen
Bavri Si Karwaton Se, Nindiya Door Bhaage
Bavre Se Nain Chaahe, Bavre Jharokhon Se, Bavre Nazaron Ko Takna.
Bavra Mann Dekhne Chala Ek Sapna



Bavre Se Is Jahan Main Bavra Ek Saath Ho
Is Sayani Bheed Main Bas Haathon Mein Tera Haath Ho
Bavri Si Dhun Ho Koi, Bavra Ek Raag Ho
Bavri Si Dhun Ho Koi, Bavra Ek Raag Ho
Bavre Se Pair Chahen, Baavron Tarano Ke, Bavre Se Bol Pe Thirakna.
Bavra Mann, Dekhne Chala Ek Sapna



Bavra Sa Ho Andhera, Bavri Khamoshiyan
Bavra Sa Ho Andhera, Bavri Khamoshiyan
Thartharati Low Ho Maddham, Bavri Madhoshiyan
Bavra Ek Ghooghta Chahe, Haule Haule Bin Bataye, Bavre Se Mukhde Se Sarakana,
Bavra Mann, Dekhne Chala Ek Sapna

Heal....

the seed was sown , it fell on the muddy ground ,,
with ambitions to turn into a tree on d same muddy ground

the sun rose that day ,, they told me it was a sunday . .
it was dark wen i came into light ,, i was born that day
i must hav cried that day ,, for sure ,,,,,, i mus hav cried

the seed developed roots ,, it held on to the ground
it grew into a sapling wid the winds and the rain , the sun

the days passed the boy grew wid da summers
with da rains n d stars at the night
the soul went wet and the body was soaked he grew
he was taught the bad , the good and the true

sapling grew into a small tree it saw da same summer
the same winter and the same watery rain ,, it kept on growing
the muddy ground now its home ,, bad but its much needed home

a teen he was called now , knowin wat mus not be done
wat must never be done and wat was impossible, he was alone
he was educated ; he was a leader wid no followers

the mud was all over it , but it was living to grow
there wer insects there wer parasites ,,
it was growing the only one on the mud ,, its roots wer in mud

One day the sun rose again ;
the man smiled that day ,, this day he knew wat was to be done
wat was to be followed and wer was he to go ,,
he shrugged ,, he truged the mud was still there but it was on his feet now

there was spring ; there was dew
the parasites dead the insects dead
the bird twittered it was bright again ,,
there was mud ,, it was grown in mud ,,
but it was on his roots ,, the seed was a tree now !!

What I Might Have Been ...

Today again I spend my day
Chasing the shadows away
Doing the best I can
Faking a smile and being sane

I pick the pieces from the floor
Of trampled smithereens of broken soul
And try not to become
The kind of man that I am

I still latch on to a hope
That some day I will easily cope
With these nonsensical thing I do
To prove to self that I am true

When I turn and see all around
Crescendo of this useless sound
I take a refuge in space within
For a glimpse of what I might have been...

movin towards ......

He waits for the weekend
He waits for end ...
Glad to see the back of more seven days minus his lyf ,,,,,,,,
he waits for the time to pass by him ,,
this life it seems is like a ray withou a beam ,,
D sea`s comin to the shore to find frnds i wait for d weeken to kil `em
D dark clouds bring rain for d ppl i bring pain ,,,
i keep it simple i keep it plain ,, i simply kip it lame ,,,
The games same its damn same ,,, the winds bring breeze they cool to tame ,,,
i see the end i seek to tend
Its gonna crash ,, gonna go into trash

I`ll claim the damage ,, I`l tak d avenge
to this v ery fact i`ll avenge
Its gonna hurt us all ,, its gonna dart us all ,,
Its comin to its death the ultimate and the unkown end..

Goob bye i`ll not miss you ,, i`ll not no i won`t ....

KIng Jeremy

Jeremy Lyrics

At home Drawing pictures....of mountain tops...with him on top...

lemin yellow sun... arms raised in a V...dead lay in pools of maroon below..

daddy didn't nnnnn King Jeremy the wicked... ruled his world...

Jeremy spoke in..class..today...Clearly I remember ...picking on the boy...

seemed a harmless little fuck...but we unleashed a lion...

gnashed his teeth and bit the recess' lady's breast...how could I forget..

and he hit me with the suprise left...oh dropped my jaw wide open just like the day...

oh...like the day i heard...daddy didn't give affection..

and the boy was something that mommy wouldn't wear...

King Jeremy the wicked ruled his world...Jeremy spoke in...class..today..

Try to forget this... Try to erase this... From the blackboard.

Song Interpretation

The first verse of the song describes Jeremy drawing pictures.
These pictures have Jeremy on top of mountains with all the people who tease him lying below him dead.
Jeremy gets his revenge by imagining that he is killing the people who taunt him.
He stands with his arms raised in a ³V² shape in the picture.
The "V" is for victory with is revenge.
Jeremy can not get his revenge in reality, so he draws these pictures and creates his own little world where he is mightier than his peers.

The second verse explains how Jeremy's parents did not pay any attention, or care too much about him. Eddie shows how the responsibility of the parents can influence a child's life. The parent¹s are not caring and supportive enough towards Jeremy.
Jeremy creates his own little world, separate from reality, where he is the ruler or king.

The chorus is simply "Jeremy spoke in class today".
Though short and simple, the meaning is more complex. Jeremy did not actually speak in class, he committed suicide.
He commits suicide to escape the problems he has dealing with reality. And metaphorically he speaks by making a point that some thing in society needs changing.

The third verse is a flashback to Eddie's past.
He remembers a boy who when teased would unleash is anger against those teasing him. In the second verse Eddie shows how Jeremy¹s parents have to take some responsibility for the way Jeremy was and what happened to him. In this verse he makes the point that Jeremy's parents are not solely to blame; that his peers and society must take some responsibility for his death. The fourth verse reinforces the responsibility that the parents should take in Jeremy's death. It also repeats how Jeremy ruled his imaginary world. The fifth verse is the chorus plus three other lines. He ends the song with these three lines: "Try to forget this..." , "Try to erase this..." and "from the blackboard". Eddie is saying these lines sarcastically because anyone faced with this situation will not be able to forget even if they try. People closely involved in a situation similar, will feel guilt and it will leave a mark in their memory.

Nothingman

Isn`t it somethng nothingman ,,,

he says one`s divided nothing left to substract

nice song ,, caught a bolt of lightnin,,, cursed the day he let it go

She once believed...in every story he had to tell...
One day she stiffened...took the other side...

he who forgets will be destined to remember ,,, isn`t it somthing nothingman mmmm

she don`t want it ,, she won`t feed it ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

INTO THE SUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN ,,,,,,,

BURN ; BURN ; BURN

NOTHINGMAN ...............

i live in a town .......

And i live in a town ;
that cries with me,
i live in a town
that surprises me ;
this town is alwaz wid me ; is a frnd to me ; Yeah !!!

and i live in a town
that smiles with me
i live in a town
that cares for me
this town is; feedin to me ; is a mother to me ; oooh yea !!!

and i live in a town
that embraces me;
and i live in a town
this town is one that caressing me ; is a love to me ; my love to be.

and i live in a town
that guides me
i live in a town
that strikes me
this town is a teacher to me , alwaz with me .

and i live in a town
that slams at me
and i live in a town
that dies with me
this town is forever with me ...
Eternity !! Eternity !!

Outsyde

All the times that I cried
All this wastin
Its all inside
And I feel all this pain
Stuffed it down
Its back again
And I lie here in bed
All alone
I cant mend but I feel
Tomorrow will be okay

Im on the outside
Im looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
Inside youre ugly
Ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you

Bad

bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad badbad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad badbad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad badbad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad badbad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad badbad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad badbad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad badbad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad badbad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad badbad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad badbad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad badbad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad badbad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad

I still dun love her

i loved u i truly did
u din lov me u truly didn`t
i was broke ,, i was lame ,, i was dead
but u din love me ,, did u

i walkd ,, i ran , i cried .. i died
i jumpd ,, i flied ,, i tried and i only tried

the walk was unnecssary
the talk was unnescary
is this even necessary
but u still dun love me ,.,, she din lovve me


many ppl changd , many souls chagd ,,,
i got high ,, i doped ,, i junkd ... i puked ...
but still i dancd ,, i dancd
b`coz u still dun love me ,, sbe still din love me

i laughed ,, it faded ... i killed one .. i killed 5
it faded ,,, the earth revolved there was a blast somwer in da galaxy or was it in ma taxi ,,
i was drunk ,, i was broke ... the taxi smashd ,, i saw red i saw pain ..

i was lying ,, injured physically this time
but she still din love me ,, i still dun love her..............

By me

Some people get lucky
some people never do
n some die in the process

Truth is stranger than fiction

did the floor jus shiver.. my mind waved with a quiver. was it a passing thot or a cannonball aimed at me .. my feet shook,, by eyes went blind,, my brain went dead.. was this still a dream .. Now it was not , it was reality as shockin and as mind trembling as any cud me ,, i let ma head settle , i let ma eyes settle .. this was meant to go ,, it was never meant to come .. Surprises hell i dun like them ,, of sucha kind naaa ,, never "Truth is stranger is fiction"... can`t giv a beter example

race

chewed up an spit out on stage
this fuckin miser ,,
tryin his verses and his curses ,, try winnin tha loser
dopin ritin rewritin the crap seems da same ,, the music changed
the beers same the glass has changed
try runnin behind dreams try chasin them ,, runnin fallin gettin up n still runnin ,,
i puke i fluke i drnk booze n eat goose
this life runnin ,, runnin ,,, huh fuck still runnin
therz no pit stop therz no plac to stock
ther r miles to run , there are lies to run
therz a life to ruin and a fortune to b ruined

The thing about women ,,,,, wat a women wants ,, y do v even care .. i mean we can`t even get wat we want do we ,, then y da hell do we care wat a women wants ,, she`ll get wat she wants herself ,, if she can`t thats her problem ....... rite , all these mails i keep gettin ,,spam all f them ,, guys grow up ,,pls heavens sake ...... i mean .. y so much f importance.. grow up n get a life .. stop given them so much f importance unless u forget wat u hav n start doin wat she wants n become a damned slave,, n a miserable ass..... i mean u get a new girl in da offc n all da assholes behind her n she playin arnd wid eveone and all f em flashing themselves for her ,,, wat do they get i fail to understand....................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

Atheism

A new question has cropped up. Is it due to vanity that I do not believe in the existence of an omnipotent, omnipresent and omniscient God? I had never imagined that I would ever have to confront such a question. But conversation with some friends has given me, a hint that certain of my friends, if I am not claiming too much in thinking them to be so-are inclined to conclude from the brief contact they have had with me, that it was too much on my part to deny the existence of God and that there was a certain amount of vanity that actuated my disbelief. Well, the problem is a serious one. I do not boast to be quite above these human traits. I am a man and nothing more. None can claim to be more. I also have this weakness in me. Vanity does form a part of my nature. Amongst my comrades I was called an autocrat. Even my friend Mr. B.K. Dutt sometimes called me so. On certain occasions I was decried as a despot. Some friends do complain and very seriously too that I involuntarily thrust my opinions upon others and get my proposals accepted. That this is true up to a certain extent, I do not deny. This may amount to egotism. There is vanity in me in as much as our cult as opposed to other popular creeds is concerned. But that is not personal. It may be, it is only legitimate pride in our cult and does not amount to vanity. Vanity or to be more precise "Ahankar" is the excess of undue pride in one's self. Whether it is such an undue pride that has led me to atheism or whether it is after very careful study of the subject and after much consideration that I have come to disbelieve in God, is a question that I, intend to discuss here. Let me first make it clear that egotism and vanity are two different things.

In the first place, I have altogether failed to comprehend as to how undue pride or vain-gloriousness could ever stand in the way of a man in believing in God. I can refuse to recognize the greatness of a really great man provided I have also achieved a certain amount of popularity without deserving it or without having possessed the qualities really essential or indispensable for the same purpose. That much is conceivable. But in what way can a man believing in God cease believing due to his personal vanity? There are only two Ways. The man should either begin to think himself a rival of God or he may begin to believe himself to be God. In neither case can he become a genuine atheist. In the first case he does not even deny the existence of his rival. In the second case as well he admits the existence of a conscious being behind the screen guiding all the movements of nature. It is of no importance to us whether he thinks himself to be that supreme being or whether he thinks the supreme conscious being to be somebody apart from himself. The fundamental is there. His belief is there. He is by no means an atheist. Well, here I am I neither belong to the first category nor to the second.

I deny the very existence of that Almighty Supreme being. Why I deny it shall be dealt with later on. Here I want to clear one thing, that it is not vanity that has actuated me to adopt the doctrines of atheism. I am neither a rival nor an incarnation nor the Supreme Being Himself. One point is decided, that it is not vanity that has led me to this mode of thinking. Let me examine the facts to disprove this allegation. According to these friends of mine I have grown vain-glorious perhaps due to the undue popularity gained during the trials-both Delhi Bomb and Lahore conspiracy cases. Well, let us see if their premises are correct. My atheism is not of so recent origin. I had stopped believing in God when I was an obscure young man, of whose existence my above mentioned friends were not even aware. At least a college student cannot cherish any short of undue pride which may lead him to atheism. Though a favorite with some professors and disliked by certain others, I was never an industrious or a studious boy. I could not get any chance of indulging in such feelings as vanity. I was rather a boy with a very shy nature, who had certain pessimistic dispositions about the future career. And in those days, I was not a perfect atheist. My grand-father under whose influence I was brought up is an orthodox Arya Samajist. An Arya Samajist is anything but an atheist. After finishing my primary education I joined the DAV. School of Lahore and stayed in its Boarding House for full one year. There, apart from morning and evening prayers, I used to recite "Gayatri Mantra" for hours and hours. I was a perfect devotee in those days. Later on I began to live with my father. He is a liberal in as much as the orthodoxy of religions is concerned. It was through his teachings that I aspired to devote my life to the cause of freedom. But he is not an atheist. He is a firm believer. He used to encourage me for offering prayers daily. So, this is how I was brought up. In the Non-Co-operation days I joined the National College. it was there that I began to think liberally and discuss and criticize all the religious problems, even about God. But still I was a devout believer. By that time I had begun to preserve the unshorn and unclipped long hair but I could never believe in the mythology and doctrines of Sikhism or, any other religion. But I had a firm faith in God's existence.

Later on I joined the revolutionary party. The first leader with whom I came in contact, though not convinced, could not dare to deny the existence of God. On my persistent inquiries about God, he used to say, "Pray whenever you want to". Now this is atheism less courage required for the adoption of that creed. The second leader with whom I came in contact was a firm believer. Let me mention his name-respected comrade Sachindra Nath Sanyal, now undergoing life transportation in connexion with the Karachi conspiracy case. From the every first page of his famous and only book, "Bandi Jivan" (or Incarcerated Life), the Glory of God is sung vehemently. In the last page of the second part of that beautiful book his mystic-because of Vedantism – praises showered upon God form a very conspicuous part of his thoughts.

"The Revolutionary leaflet" distributed- throughout India on January 28th, 1925, was according to the prosecution story the result of his intellectual labor, Now, as is inevitable in the secret work the prominent leader expresses his own views, which are very dear to his person and the rest of the workers have to acquiesce in them-in spite of differences, which they might have. In that leaflet one full paragraph was devoted to praise the Almighty and His rejoicings and doing. That is all mysticism. What I wanted to point out was that the idea of disbelief had not even germinated in the revolutionary party. The famous Kakori martyrs –all four of them-passed their last day in prayers. Ram Prasad Bismil was an orthodox Arya Samajist. Despite his wide studies in the field of Socialism and Communism, Rajen Lahiri could not suppress his desire, of reciting hymns of the Upanishads and the Gita. I saw only one man amongst them, who never prayed and used to say, "Philosophy is the outcome of human weakness or limitation of knowledge". He is also undergoing a sentence of transportation for life. But he also never dared to deny the existence of God.

UP to that period I was only a romantic idealist revolutionary. Uptil then we were to follow. Now came the time to shoulder the whole responsibility. Due to the inevitable reaction for some time the very existence of the Party seemed impossible. Enthusiastic comrades – nay leaders – began to jeer at us. For some time I was afraid that some day I also might not be convinced of the futility of our own program. That was a turning point in my revolutionary career. "Study" was the cry that reverberated in the corridors of my mind. Study to enable yourself to face the arguments advanced by opposition. Study to arm yourself with arguments in favor of your cult. I began to study. My previous faith and convictions underwent a remarkable modification. The Romance of the violent methods alone which was so prominent amongst our predecessors, was replaced by serious ideas. No more mysticism, no more blind faith. Realism became our cult. Use of force justifiable when resorted to as a matter of terrible necessity: non-violence as policy indispensable for all mass movements. So much about methods.

The most important thing was the clear conception of the ideal for which we were to fight, As there were no important activities in the field of action I got ample opportunity to study various ideals of the world revolution. I studied Bakunin, the Anarchist leader, something of Marx the father of Communism and much of Lenin, Trotsky and others the men who had successfully carried out a revolution in their country. They were all atheists. Bakunin's "God and State", though only fragmentary, is an interesting study of the subject. Later still I came across a book entitled 'Common Sense' by Nirlamba Swami. It was only a sort of mystic atheism. This subject became of utmost interest to me. By the end of 1926 I had been convinced as to the baselessness of the theory of existence of an almighty supreme being who created, guided and controlled the universe. I had given out this disbelief of mine. I began discussion on the subjects with my friends. I had become a pronounced atheist. But, what it meant will presently be discussed.

In May 1927 I was arrested at Lahore. The arrest was a surprise. I was quite unaware of (he fact that the police wanted me. All of a sudden while passing through a garden I found myself surrounded by police. To my own surprise, I was very calm at that time. I did not feel any sensation, neither did I experience any excitement. I was taken into police custody. Next day I was taken to the Railway Police lock-up where I was to pass full one month. After many day's conversation with the Police officials I guessed that they had some information regarding my connexion with the Kakori Party and my other activities in connexion with the revolutionary movement. They told me that I had been to Lucknow while the trial was going on there, that I had negotiated a certain scheme about their rescue, that after obtaining their approval, we had procured some bombs, that by way of test one of the bombs was thrown in the crowd on the occasion of Dussehra 1926. They further informed me, in my interest, that if I could give any statement throwing some light on the activities of the revolutionary party, I was not to be imprisoned but on the contrary set free and rewarded even without being produced as an approver in the Court. I laughed at the proposal. It was all humbug.

People holding ideas like ours do not throw bombs on their own innocent people. One fine morning Mr. Newman, the then Senior Superintendent of CID., came to me. And after much sympathetic talk with me imparted-to him-the extremely sad news that if I did not give any statement as demanded by them, they would be forced to send me up for trial for conspiracy to wage war in connexion with Kakori Case and for brutal murders in connexion with Dussehra Bomb outrage. And he further informed me that they had evidence enough to get me convicted and hanged.

In those days I believed – though I was quite innocent – the police could do it if they desired. That very day certain police officials began to persuade me to offer my prayers to God regularly both the times. Now I was an atheist. I wanted to settle for myself whether it was in the days of peace and enjoyment alone that I could boast of being an atheist or whether during such hard times as well I could stick to those principles of mine. After great consideration I decided that I could not lead myself to believe in and pray to God. No, I never did. That was the real test and I came, out successful. Never for a moment did I desire to save my neck at the cost of certain other things. So I was a staunch disbeliever : and have ever since been. It was not an easy job to stand that test.

'Belief' softens the hardships, even can make them pleasant. In God man can find very strong consolation and support. Without Him, the man has to depend upon himself. To stand upon one's own legs amid storms and hurricanes is not a child's play. At such testing moments, vanity, if any, evaporates, and man cannot dare to defy the general beliefs, if he does, then we must conclude that he has got certain other strength than mere vanity. This is exactly the situation now. Judgment is already too well known. Within a week it is to be pronounced. What is the consolation with the exception of the idea that I am going to sacrifice my life for a cause ? A God-believing Hindu might be expecting to be reborn as a king, a Muslim or a Christian might dream of the luxuries to be- enjoyed in paradise and the reward he is to get for his sufferings and sacrifices. But what am I to expect? I know the moment the rope is fitted round my neck and rafters removed, from under my feet. That will be the final moment, that will be the last moment. I, or to be more precise, my soul, as interpreted in the metaphysical terminology, shall all be finished there. Nothing further.

A short life of struggle with no such magnificent end, shall in itself be the reward if I have the courage to take it in that light. That is all. With no selfish motive, or desire to be awarded here or hereafter, quite disinterestedly have I devoted my life to the cause of independence, because I could not do otherwise. The day we find a great number of men and women with this psychology who cannot devote themselves to anything else than the service of mankind and emancipation of the suffering humanity; that day shall inaugurate the era of liberty.

Not to become a king, nor to gain any other rewards here, or in the next birth or after death in paradise, shall they be inspired to challenge the oppressors, exploiters, and tyrants, but to cast off the yoke of serfdom from the neck of humanity and to establish liberty and peace shall they tread this-to their individual selves perilous and to their noble selves the only glorious imaginable-path. Is the pride in their noble cause to be – misinterpreted as vanity? Who dares to utter such an abominable epithet? To him, I say either he is a fool or a knave. Let us forgive him for he can not realize the depth, the emotion, the sentiment and the noble feelings that surge in that heart. His heart is dead as a mere lump of flesh, his eyes are-weak, the evils of other interests having been cast over them. Self-reliance is always liable to be interpreted as vanity. It is sad and miserable but there is no help.

You go and oppose the prevailing faith, you go and criticize a hero, a great man, who is generally believed to be above criticism because he is thought to be infallible, the strength of your argument shall force the multitude to decry you as vainglorious. This is due to the mental stagnation, Criticism and independent thinking are the two indispensable qualities of a revolutionary. Because Mahatamaji is great, therefore none should criticize him. Because he has risen above, therefore everything he says-may be in the field of Politics or Religion, Economics or Ethics-is right. Whether you are convinced or not you must say, "Yes, that's true". This mentality does not lead towards progress. It is rather too obviously, reactionary.

Because our forefathers had set up a faith in some supreme, being – the Almighty God – therefore any man who dares to challenge the validity of that faith, or the very existence of that supreme being, he shall have to be called an apostate, a renegade. If his arguments are too sound to be refuted by counter-arguments and spirit too strong to be cowed down by the threat of misfortunes that may befall him by the wrath of the Almighty, he shall be decried as vainglorious, his spirit to be denominated as vanity. Then why to waste time in this vain discussion? Why try to argue out the whole thing? This question is coming before the public for the first time, and is being handled in this matter of fact way for the first time, hence this lengthy discussion.

As for the first question, I think I have cleared that it is not vanity that has led me to atheism. My way of argument has proved to be convincing or not, that is to be judged by my readers, not me. I know in the present, circumstances my faith in God would have made my life easier, my burden lighter and my disbelief in Him has turned all the circumstances too dry and the situation may assume too harsh a shape. A little bit of mysticism can make it poetical. But I, do not want the help of any intoxication to meet my fate. I am a realist. I have been trying to overpower the instinct in me by the help of reason. I have not always been successful in achieving this end. But man's duty is to try and endeavor, success depends upon chance and environments.

As for the second question that if it was not vanity, then there ought to be some reason to disbelieve the old and still prevailing faith of the existence of God. Yes; I come to that now Reason there is. According to. me, any man who has got some reasoning power at his command always tries to reason out his environments. Where direct proofs are lacking philosophy occupies the important place. As I have already stated, a certain revolutionary friend used to say that Philosophy is the outcome of human weakness. When our ancestors had leisure enough to try to solve out the mystery of this world, its past, present and the future, its whys and wherefores, they having been terribly short of direct proofs, everybody tried to solve the problem in his own way. Hence we find the wide differences in the fundamentals of various religious creeds, which some times assume very antagonistic and conflicting shapes. Not only the Oriental and Occidental philosophies differ, there are differences even amongst various schools of thoughts in each hemisphere. Amongst Oriental religions, the Moslem faith is not at all compatible with Hindu faith. In India alone Buddhism and Jainism are sometimes quite separate from Brahmanism, in which there are again conflicting faiths as Arya Samaj and Sanatan Dharma. Charwak is still another independent thinker of the past ages. He challenged the authority of God in the old times. All these creeds differ from each other on the fundamental question., and everybody considers himself to be on the right. There lies the misfortune. Instead of using the experiments and expressions of the ancient Savants and thinkers as a basis for our future struggle against ignorance and to try to find out a solution to this mysterious problem, we – lethargical as we have proved to be – raise the hue and cry of faith, unflinching and unwavering faith to their versions and thus are guilty of stagnation in human progress.

Any man who stands for progress has to criticize, disbelieve and challenge every item of the old faith. Item by item he has to reason out every nook and corner of the prevailing faith. If after considerable reasoning one is led to believe in any theory or philosophy, his faith is welcomed. His reasoning can be mistaken, wrong, misled and sometimes fallacious. But he is liable to correction because reason is the guiding star of his life. But mere faith and blind faith is dangerous: it dulls the brain, and makes a man reactionary.

A man who claims to be a realist has to challenge the whole of the ancient faith. If it does not stand the onslaught of reason it crumbles down. Then the first thing for him is to shatter the whole down and clear a space for the erection of a new philosophy. This is the negative side. After it begins the positive work in which sometimes some material of the old faith may be used for the purpose of reconstruction. As far as I am concerned, let me admit at the very outset that I have not been able to study much on this point. I had a great desire to study the Oriental Philosophy but I could not get any chance or opportunity to do the same. But so far as the negative study is under discussion, I think I am convinced to the extent of questioning the soundness of the old faith. I have been convinced as to non-existence of a conscious supreme being who is guiding and directing the movements of nature. We believe in nature and the whole progressive movement aims at the domination of man over nature for his service. There is no conscious power behind it to direct. This is what our philosophy is.

As for the negative side. we ask a few questions from the 'believers'.

If, as you believe, there is an almighty, omnipresent, omniscient and omnipotent God-who created the earth or world, please let me know why did he create it ? This world of woes and miseries, a veritable, eternal combination of numberless tragedies: Not a single soul being perfectly satisfied.

Pray, don't say that it is His Law: If he is bound by any law, he is not omnipotent. He is another slave like ourselves. Please don't say that it is his enjoyment. Nero burnt one Rome. He killed a very limited number of people. He created very few tragedies, all to his perfect enjoyment. And what is his place in History? By what names do the historians mention him? All the venomous epithets are showered upon him. Pages are blackened with invective diatribes condemning Nero, the tyrant, the heartless, the wicked.

One Changezkhan sacrificed a few thousand lives to seek pleasure in it and we hate the very name. Then how are you going to justify your almighty, eternal Nero, who has been, and is still causing numberless tragedies every day, every hour and every minute? How do you think to support his misdoings which surpass those of Changez every single moment? I say why did he create this world – a veritable hell, a place of constant and bitter unrest? Why did the Almighty create man when he had the power not to do it? What is the justification for all this ? Do you say to award the innocent sufferers hereafter and to punish the wrong-doers as well? Well, well: How far shall you justify a man who may dare to inflict wounds upon your body to apply a very soft and soothing liniment upon it afterwards? How far the supporters and organizers of the Gladiator Institution were justified in throwing men before the half starved furious lions to be cared for and well looked after if they could survive and could manage to escape death by the wild beasts? That is why I ask, 'Why did the conscious supreme being created this world and man in it? To seek pleasure? Where then is the difference between him and Nero'?

You Mohammadens and Christians : Hindu Philosophy shall still linger on to offer another argument. I ask you what is your answer to the above-mentioned question? You don't believe in previous birth. Like Hindus you cannot advance the argument of previous misdoings of the apparently quite innocent sufferers? I ask you why did the omnipotent labor for six days to create the world through word and each day to say that all was well. Call him today. Show him the past history. Make him study the present situation. Let us see if he dares to say, "All is well".

From the dungeons of prisons, from the stores of starvation consuming millions upon millions of human beings in slums and huts, from the exploited laborers, patiently or say apathetically watching the procedure of their blood being sucked by the Capitalist vampires, and the wastage of human energy that will make a man with the least common sense shiver with horror, and from the preference of throwing the surplus of production in oceans rather than to distribute amongst the needy producers…to the palaces of kings built upon the foundation laid with human bones.... let him see all this and let him say "All is well".

Why and wherefore? That is my question. You are silent.

All right then, I proceed. Well, you Hindus, you say all the present sufferers belong to the class of sinners of the previous births. Good. You say the present oppressors were saintly people in their previous births, hence they enjoy power. Let me admit that your ancestors were very shrewd people, they tried to find out theories strong enough to hammer down all the efforts of reason and disbelief. But let us analyze how far this argument can really stand.

From the point of view of the most famous jurists punishment can be justified only from three or four ends to meet which it is inflicted upon the wrongdoer. They are retributive, reformative and deterrent. The retributive theory is now being condemned by all the advanced thinkers. Deterrent theory is also following the same fate. Reformative theory is the only one which is essential, and indispensable for human progress. It aims at returning the offender as a most competent and a peace-loving citizen to the society. But what is the nature of punishment inflicted by God upon men even if we suppose them to be offenders. You say he sends them to be born as a cow, a cat, a tree, a herb or a best. You enumerate these punishments to be 84 lakhs. I ask you what is its reformative effect upon man? How many men have met you who say that they were born as a donkey in previous birth for having committed any sin? None. Don't quote your Puranas. I have no scope to touch your mythologies. Moreover do you know that the greatest sin in this world is to be poor. Poverty is a sin, it is a punishment.

I ask you how far would you appreciate a criminologist, a jurist or a legislator who proposes such measures of punishment which shall inevitably force man to commit more offences? Had not your God thought of this or he also had to learn these things by experience, but at the cost of untold sufferings to be borne by humanity? What do you think shall be the fate of a man who has been born in a poor and illiterate family of say a chamar or a sweeper. He is poor, hence he cannot study. He is hated and shunned by his fellow human beings who think themselves to be his superiors having been born in say a higher caste. His ignorance, his poverty and the treatment meted out to him shall harden his heart towards society. Suppose he commits a sin, who shall bear the consequences? God, he or the learned ones of, the society? What about the punishment of those people who were deliberately kept ignorant by the haughty and egotist Brahmans and who had to pay the penalty by bearing the stream of being led (not lead) in their ears for having heard a few sentences of your Sacred Books of learning-the Vedas? If they committed any offence-who was to be responsible for them and who was to bear the brunt? My dear friends: These theories are the inventions of the privileged ones: They justify their usurped power, riches and superiority by the help of these theories. Yes: It was perhaps Upton Sinclair, that wrote at some place, that just make a man a believer in immortality and then rob him of all his riches, and possessions. He shall help you even in that ungrudgingly. The coalition amongst the religious preachers and possessors of power brought forth jails, gallows, knouts and these theories.

I ask why your omnipotent God, does not stop every man when he is committing any sin or offence? He can do it quite easily. Why did he not kill war lords or kill the fury of war in them and thus avoid the catastrophe hurled down on the head of humanity by the Great War? Why does he not just produce a certain sentiment in the mind of the British people to liberate India? Why does he not infuse the altruistic enthusiasm in the hearts of all capitalists to forgo their rights of personal possessions of means of production and thus redeem the whole laboring community – nay the whole human society from the bondage of Capitalism. You want to reason out the practicability of socialist theory, I leave it for your almighty to enforce it.

People recognize the merits of socialism in as much as the general welfare is concerned. They oppose it under the pretext of its being impracticable. Let the Almighty step in and arrange everything in an orderly fashion. Now don't try to advance round about arguments, they are out of order. Let me tell you, British rule is here not because God wills it but because they possess power and we do not dare to oppose them. Not that it is with the help of God that they are keeping us under their subjection but it is with the help of guns and rifles, bomb and bullets, police and millitia and our apathy that they are successfully committing the most deplorable sin against society- the outrageous exploitation of one nation by another. Where is God ? What is he doing? Is he enjoying all I these woes of human race ? A Nero; A Changez : Down with him.

Do you ask me how I explain the origin of this world and origin of man? Alright I tell you. Charles Darwin has tried to throw some light on the subject. Study him. Read Soham Swami's "Commonsense". It shall answer your question to some extent. This is a phenomenon of nature. The accidental mixture of different substances in the shape of nebulae produced this earth. When? Consult history. The same process produced animals and in the long run man. Read Darwin's 'Origin of Species'. And all the later progress is due to man's constant conflict with nature and his efforts to override it. This is the briefest possible explanation of this phenomenon.

Your other argument may be just to ask why a child is born blind or lame if not due to his deeds committed in the previous birth? This problem has been explained away by biologists as a more biological phenomenon. According to them the whole burden rests upon the shoulders of the parents who may be conscious or ignorant of their own deeds led to mutilation of the child previous to its birth.

Naturally you may ask another question though it is quite childish in essence. If no God existed, how did the people come to believe in him? My answer is clear and brief. As they came to believe in ghosts, and evil spirits; the only difference is that belief in God is almost universal and the philosophy well developed. Unlike certain of the radicals I would not attribute its origin to the ingenuity of the exploiters who wanted to keep the people under their subjection by preaching the existence of a supreme being and then claiming an authority and sanction from him for their privileged positions. Though I do not differ with them on the essential point that all faiths, religions, creeds and such other institutions became in turn the mere supporters of the tyrannical and exploiting institutions, men and classes. Rebellion against king is always a sin according to every religion.

As regards the origin of God my own idea is that having realized the limitations of man, his weaknesses and shortcoming having been taken into consideration, God was brought into imaginary existence to encourage man to face boldly all the trying circumstances, to meet all dangers manfully and to check and restrain his outbursts in prosperity and affluence. God both with his private laws and parental generosity was imagined and painted in greater details. He was to serve as a deterrent factor when his fury and private laws were discussed so that man may not become a danger to society. He was to serve as a father, mother, sister and brother, friend and helpers when his parental qualifications were to be explained. So that when man be in great distress having been betrayed and deserted by all friends he may find consolation in the idea that an ever true friend was still there to help him, to support him and that He was almighty and could do anything. Really that was useful to the society in the primitive age.

The idea of God is helpful to man in distress.

Society has to fight out this belief as well as was fought the idol worship and the narrow conception of religion. Similarly, when man tries to stand on his own legs, and become a realist he shall have to throw the faith aside, and to face manfully all the distress, trouble, in which the circumstances may throw him. That is exactly my state of affairs. It is not my vanity, my friends. It is my mode of thinking that has made me an atheist. I don't know whether in my case belief in God and offering of daily prayers which I consider to be most selfish and degraded act on the part of man, whether these prayers can prove to be helpful or they shall make my case worse still. I have read of atheists facing all troubles quite boldly, so am I trying to stand like a man with an erect head to the last; even on the gallows.

Let us see how I carry on : one friend asked me to pray. When informed of my atheism, he said, "During your last days you will begin to believe". I said, No, dear Sir, it shall not be. I will think that to be an act of degradation and demoralization on my part. For selfish motives I am not going to pray. Readers and friends, "Is this vanity"? If it is, I stand for it.

– Bhagat Singh (1930)

Any time things appear to be going better, you have overlooked something

the text contains sum shit
ok ,, so u better get ready
with your ass pretty steady
to wipe all that cums out f slim shady

so shit ,, is meant for rick,, that stupid dick without a fick
oh rick oh rick oh rick oh rick

ummmmm huh
aaa aaa aaaa aaaa

so life , get out f life,,
u stupid moronnnnnnn u get a life

this stupd life , ths dicky life,
get stuck up wid a moronic rife

aaaa aaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaa

so i begin ,, cursin this thing
burfin tis thng , crushin it in
its been bad ,,its sad ,,
its been filled up wid crap
its like a shithole ,, filld it wid whore,, its like a sea widot a shore

aaaaa aaaaaaa aaaaa aaa aa aa


its all jus confusin
mamind out here is badly dozzin
the room wid brains is freezin
the doom with devils leasing
the fools are mindless freakin
the morons jackd up fuckin
mother fukers checkin
brainless dumheads lafin
the unbound junkyard darkens

my new workplace freakin
the walls out here creakin
the folks are badly cheatin
n the dopes are madly eatin
the buzz is dat
the boss is mad
the employees are out so sadly sad
its pretty bad ,, its pretty tad
my dad has got this fuckin fad

no one stays here by faking reality

well atlantis it was ,, and it is ,, a place, a place i cant say for me well its for folks to decide buh ,, a palce i surely wud die for ......... well after puttin on so many of them ,, faces,, i dont exactly kno wats happenin ,, the basic insticnt is lost its sumthn that has gone permanantly and will never come ,,, thats wat i feel .,, i kno its insane but i jus cant help it ,, its worse kind of bad ,, sad and pathetic i jus hate it ,, i jus despise it ,,, behind al those the orginal product is jus lost and i`1l keep on findin it ..,, identity loss u call it ,,, no one stays by fakin reality they say ,, well its tru and tats da way it has to b,,,, Atlantis

the bad plac

i live in a bad plac,,
i live in a sad plac,
my lonely heart looks out for solace,,
ma gloomy face,,
these doomy dayz,
where can i find a soul whom i can embrace,,
this fast pace,,
this never endin race,,
ma lonely heart looks out for solace,,
the screechin moans,,
the wounded groans,,.
MY mind's grown,,
my minds grown,,
the tears in my eyes are set,,
ma brows are growin wet,,
i sit n i write this poem,,
i c my world gettin runied...

hdk.

300 dialogues

in the oder sense ,,, mhan wat a movie,, seen it long bac ,, count me in heh,, anyways sum of da fandastic dialogies frm the epic

''Tonite we Dine in Hell"
"Madness - This is Sparta"
"Give Them Nothing - But take from them everything
"Before this battle is over , the world will know
tell ur king tht he faces free men here
Dilios :
Go Tell the Spartans, passer-by;
That here by Spartan law, we lie..
Ya "Sparten Women give birth to real men"
'They look thirsty. well lets give them something to drink'
IMMORTALS........ We'll put their name to the test
NO RETREAT.......NO SURRENDER...THIS IS THE SPARTAN LAW.....
Persian Emissary : ........Our arrows will blot out the sun!
Stelios: Then, we will fight in the shade.

new phase , new beginnin ,, the saga begins

or mayb it continues ,,, past one year n i m a diffrnt man all ova agan ,, thousand experiences and a million changes (hyberbole) anywayss time to end ol thngs n begin wid new ,, thats wat the moment asks for n dats wat i m doin , the moons set probably the suns risin ,, sooooooooo ,, feb 23 ,, mar 3 i hav ma xams so sorta preoccupied ba it ,, neways jus thot f loggin in n start punchin thngs for the scrwd up plac,.. wel m a bit dissapointd wid masef to put it in rhyme
" hazaaron khwahishein aise
ki har khwahish pe dum nikle
bahut nikle mere armaan
phir bhi gam hai kam nikle"
actually "phir bhi kam nikle" how mch eva u do nva get satisfied wel forget it ,,,,,,,, time to move on ,, the only thng that u take wen u leave is d thng u left behind ,,, agree to dat mhan ,,,,,, hah , m gonna mis da plac though shitty buh jus lovely wel wel wel ,,, bac to 8 mile rd heh ,,,,, ciao gotcha leave tak car n thnks for readin ,,,,,, luv -- hdk

my sight

One Morning sitting near the window side
I waited for some light.
Not any light could I see
Not a bird flew, No trees around, all black
What happened, wondered I...

For a long time I sat there
As if I had nothing to worry and nothing to care
I tried putting my head outside the window
And looked up to get some light
Still I didn't get any light
Nor could I see a flying kite.

Then a thought crossed my mind
Why can't I see light of any kind ?
I remembered I am not a man of normal kind
Infact I was a man who was completely blind.

article

M is me
M is Maa
M is Mumbai

One letter and my entire life. I myself never realized that a single letter can have such unfathomable impact in my existence. Well to start of M for me, I , me , myself , something I can never dream of living without, coz I need a companion that is myself. Me is a very significant word for me as I am an egotist. I am my best friend. The second M “Maa” my mom without whom my subsistence on this blue planet was not possible. Maa, my mom without whom I can’t even think. I can’t even be. I can’t even survive. Mom to me is a great strength, a strength that keeps me going in rough times, on bumpy roads of my life and when my heart sinks , she is the light I see at the end of the tunnel, the hand which pulls me out of mess. The goddess of love, of peace and of learning she’s everything to me. M for Mumbai. Aamchi Mumbai , Mumbai can be divided into mum that is mom, baa that is mom in Gujrati and aai (bai) that’s mom in marathi. The mother of a million Mumbaikars living in this city. “I am the city and this city is me” everyone here can proudly say that. Because everyone realizes that the city cannot be complete without them. From the road side paanwallah to the richest diamond merchant, from the taxi driver to the pilot. From Mantralay to Crawford market from the stock exchange to the chor bazaar. Everyone, every street, every corner, every nukkad is buzzing with some or the other activity. It is this tireless attitude of the city that I and every Mumbaikar is proud of. It is this undying spirit that the city has imbibed in me and given me. Hence I am incomplete without this bay BOMBAY. Cheers !!

for u stupid fools.........

I am not judged by my thirst = to deceive
I feel no guilt and I have no time to know
The suffering I wrap around others A
cunning web to deceit To improve my
status among the mortals I am eternal
contradiction And a made up miracle
Yet I feast upon your feeble illusions
You are all so easy to conceive and
manipulate Do you think I was born
under a shinning star Ha he he I burst
of arrogance Is their no end of your
stupidity I was spawned in the filth of
your conscience Nurtured by your crave
for something holy I am a product of your
imagination My wealth is measured by your
ignorance These are indeed crowned days
When the weak of heart and mind inhabit
the earth Fear me earthling I am your mouth
We are born to weed you all out I am set for
eternity Self centered = I hardly see any of
you And still you fools keep me alive I have
not been updated for centuries I live in your
feeble mind And in the filthy pages of the
lined writings of pride Born in the ghetto of
the human mind Enduring all ages of this world
For as long at you stay arrogant and ignorant
I will live on the safe and secure For I am
eternal contradiction.

no time

aye guys ,, readin this piece f shit ,, no time to update ,,
well had written a coupla lines but da book got lost so ... with da book
so ciao onc i hav time,,

ttyll